Coming Out of the Broom Closet (Again)
Ever since a young age I knew I was a little different. I went through a rough child hood but in my high school years I had a big shift in mentality and spirituality. I began to broaden my horizons. I grew up in a Christian home but when I became old enough to form my own opinions, I knew that there was something missing. I tried all kinds of churches: Nazarene, Baptist, Catholic, Lutheran, Pentecostal. I yearned for the old days of the Native Americans and Celtic cultures. I knew I would not grow old where I grew up. Always quick to be willing to get up and go, I truly believe I was some sort of Nomad at some point in a past life.
I think what made me question my full belief in Christianity is when I decided that “God” would not punish a good, pure hearted person just because they call him Allah instead of God (Jehovah). Once that belief set in, I began to explore other religions and realized they all pretty much preached the same things – love mankind – Be a good person – our Earth and lives are gifts -and recognize a higher power.
In my spiritual pursuits I discovered Wicca and Paganism. I fell in love with the nature based concepts. I felt stirrings of truth come to light. It was ok to believe that “All paths up the mountain lead to the top”
I believed in the energies of the elements and the idea that everything is connected. Balance is important to me and Christianity by itself is way off balance.
So I dove into Wicca. Head first – I read everything I could. I researched and thought about things and researched some more. I still do research today. It’s been 20 years since I did my first “Dedication” ritual to this path and next week on the Hunters Moon – I’ll be doing another. 20 years ago I was still new to all the theories and was still developing my own path. Only close family members and friends knew the path I was taking.
I was very torn on leaving behind the Christian God I grew up with. Over time and meditation I came up with my own personal theory that feels like it could be right to me. I will discuss that in a later post.
For years I studied and developed my own theories but didn’t really practice. Sure I nodded to the Sabbats and Full Moons – I recognized The Lady in my prayers… so I suppose I did celebrate in my own little ways but I have vowed to take it up a notch and actually practice a bit more, especially energy work. I will be setting up my altar soon and am getting prepared to run in the race instead of watching. I want to be more active in my spiritual path, I owe myself that much and I owe it to the Lord and Lady.
Today I am proud to say I am a Christian Witch.
That wasn’t always the case. Not that I wasn’t proud – but I felt like I didn’t fit in so I didn’t talk about it often.
I didn’t fit in with the Christians because of my belief in a female divinity and I didn’t fit in with the Wiccans/Pagans because of some of the Christian ideas I still hold on to. It has taken me years to become confident enough in my beliefs to share them with everyone, plus over the last 20 years the idea of a “Christian Witch” has gained popularity. I have come to terms with being a witch, but you will not hear me say often that “I cast spells” – You will hear me say – I do “Energy Work”. I cast energies, not spells.
So now I’ve come out the “broom” closet to everyone. If you didn’t know before, you know now. I believe in the Female Goddess as well as the Male God. I will be making another post soon about the specifics of my beliefs for those interested. I have made this site to keep a record of what and how I practice, as a sort of online “Book of Shadows” – I prefer the term “Book of Light”. An online resource for myself and any others who may find it useful or helpful on their own path.
May your own path bring you balance, joy, love, happiness and peace.
Till next time
Blessed Be
The Spiritual Altar
